Let’s talk about manifestation.
When my life turned upside down last year, I put it out in the universe and said it out loud to all of my friends and family that my goal was to be back on my feet by June of 2021. That meant out of my parents’ house (again), living on my own with Benelli and being able to financially support myself at a stable job that I loved with no hiccups.
I did that.
By May 2021, I found an apartment that was exactly what I was looking for, in my hometown and close to my parents and friends (which I never thought would happen). It was a new building as well so nothing was outdated or not working which seemed like it would be an impossible goal to achieve but I manifested that.
In April of 2021 during Ontario’s third wave lockdown and while I was laid off from my current job for the second time in the year and a half that I had been working there, I got a new job that makes the same amount of income per year at my home gymnastics centre working with coworkers who feel more like family to me at this point in my life.
I picked myself back up and turned my life around from what felt like layers and layers below rock bottom, heavy emotional turmoil, mental struggles, reinventing and reimagining the course I wanted my life to take from 2020 and on. I never thought that I would get to this point of independence, euphoric happiness and confidence 10 months later.
If you had of asked me if I thought this was an achievable goal last August, I would have probably lied to you and said of course. But let’s face it, I am a spender and not a saver, so this seemed like it was a far-off dream in my mind. I kept telling myself and everyone it would happen though and somehow that worked for me, and it did. It just started to fall in to place like puzzle pieces in my lap.
Last year, was by far, the worst year of my adult life. I have never experienced so much loss, heartache, mental and emotional challenges, like I did last year. I thought there was nowhere left for me to go after losing what felt like all purpose to my life. But now, now I’m realizing how much my old life held me back. How much my old lifestyle limited me and what I am capable of as a strong, powerful and independent woman. This time last year I would have told you there was nothing left for me in the world and there was no point in trying.
But that would mean that I let my past define me and I let everyone whoever told me I can’t, win.
As I sit here, on my couch writing this and look out my window in my new apartment, it still feels surreal, but it is my new reality.
I wrote this post, to show anyone who feels like there is nowhere left to go and no way to go up from where you are at this point in your life at the time that you are reading this, that no matter how impossible, heavy and challenging it feels to start changing your life for you and for the better- it is possible. You can do it. All you need to do is take one small step, and it will start snowballing from that point on into a life that you would have never dreamed possible a few short months ago.
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